This month of Mindfulness has been pretty good. I’ve been in a routine of meditating every night. It has come to my attention that the more I meditate the better I get at it. Alexa’s assistance has helped me a great deal. I used to listen to 80’s music every night. Eventually, I realized that I wasn’t really sleeping. I had far too many dreams of being stuck in cartoon videos to continue sleeping in the 80’s. Now I only listen to those tunes while I’m wide awake!
The first night I switched from the 80’s tunes I tried heavy rain sounds mixed with some bird chatter. I fell asleep immediately. It wasn’t until I was startled in the middle of the night that I knew I had chosen the wrong sleep sounds. I felt like I had been running across the country or cross country. Never mind, the point is that I was drained! Here is where I remind you that I don’t run unless I’m being chased. So waking up feeling this way was extremely alarming for me. My heart raced and so did my mind. I was even sweating and for someone who is forever cold, I don’t need to tell you about the automatic panic that set in. When I concentrated on my breathing and began to relax again, all I could hear was the echoing sounds of bird chatter in the background. The nightmare came flooding back. The birds were chasing me, they picked me up and then let me go repeatedly. I ran like the Olympic champ I could only be in my dreams. Everywhere I went there they were again. Their black little eyes staring me down. I have no idea why I thought bird chatter mixed with rain would be a good idea. Now, my question is; why would birds be squawking while it was raining heavily anyway? Do they do this and I’ve never noticed? Who made these sleep sounds and why? Very odd.
I still struggle with mindfulness sometimes. But, with trial and error, I’ve figured out that rain storm sounds along with intermittent thunderclaps works best for me. With continuous practice, I’m actually getting better at realizing what works.
Thanks for reading. Alexa off!
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